And so it begins

I feel like I have been here a thousand times....

I go to a store, or a friend's house, or I just sit at work and think "wow Susan, you are huge". The thoughts are becoming stronger than anything now...its becoming "gee Susan, get off you ass and do something" and "you don't really deserve to go out or do things, people don't need to see how gross you are", or the fact that I feel just below everybody because I am fat. There, I said it...I am fat. Ugh, that sucks.

Well dammit, I'm going to do something about it this time. I don't know if doing this journal will help or not, but I am going to try anyway.